Evie made it through the night, which is a victory by itself. The nurses and doctors said that her vitals have improved some since being on the machine that supports her heart and lungs. It is our understanding that every moment that passes with her staying steady or improving is a step in the right direction. However, it is important for us to remember that she is being fully supported by medication and machines and she is still in critical danger. Last night before bed we pleaded with God to have mercy on her and give her a miraculous turnaround by morning. While this did not happen, we are still giving thanks that she is still with us and not declining.
Today we are finding that we don't know what to do with ourselves. In the NICU we had the privilege of spending all the time we wanted with her, and even got to hold her much of the time. Time flew when we got to be with her. Now, we can barely be in her room because things are so intense that we can't risk getting in the way. Plus, she is fully sedated and looks very terrible She's bloated, her chest is open (but coverd with gauze), and she is hooked up to machines. It is hard to be with her even when we are allowed. The question I have been asking myself since the beginning of all this is "How can I be her parent now?" Now when she is so removed from us that question is even more difficult to answer. We find ourselves just sitting and waiting, and trying to hope.
We believe in God's ability to heal and her ability to fight. Please pray for her to have strength.